Tuesday, August 14, 2007@9:56 PM
impatient.
stupid internet.
gahh. are we like reaching our bandwidth limit or something. dumbass. can't dl crap. inkigayo full show lined up since yesterday and the bloody thing restarted at 0%. *head full of curses*
anyway managed to download a bunch of crap. just watched unfair SP and wtf the ending had a bit of cliffhanger type thingy. i want unfair movie. hopefully got people sub. i shall dig. also downloaded nana2 which i know i'll be forwarding like crazy and deleting it in the end because 01. i don't like mika nakashima's portrayal of Nana O. and 02. i hate ichikawa yui who plays Hachi and 03. all the guys there aren't hot enough and 04. yuna ito as reira is again wasted because as much i love yuna chan she doesn't give me the feel that she's reira and 05. basically i'm watching for kanata-kun.
ohpleaseletNANAmangaendsoon.=.=
also dl-ed mushishi. dunno lah, the synopsis from wikipedia sounded interesting mah.
sigh anyway just got to know about something upsetting yesterday so yeah. right now i don't have clear details from everyone involved but again it's made me question my commitment to this thing and whether i still want to continue or not. _ _ sigh. so right now this issue really sucks and though i don't consciously think about it it's stuck in the back of my head. i know right now everyone's hurt and having complex feelings and what not but honestly i don't know if i feel the same as them seeing as i've never had the experiences they had and it was just on the same day that jess and i were talking about our future plans for it. and at night a bomb was dropped which made me go crazy sitting here miles away, shaking in my chair and it had nothing to do with the fact that it was probably less than 10degrees outside. and of course i was going crazy msn-ing jess and sms-ing shu but at the end of the day, i know i won't want to give up yet. but what to do, the area i'm in charge of is a neglected area and the orang who said they wanted to revive it basically kicked it to the curb after all that's happened. so yeah. i'm worried. for myself since my name is the one stuck on there, along with jess's and mwish's. so, what are we to do now? pretend that we still care? or pretend that nothing's happened? or wat? i dunno.
too lazy to recap my day yesterday and today. basically both days were BORING. and i found lots of split ends in my hair, basket. obviously i know because i spent a long time in class just finger combing through the ends of my hair while the damn lecturer droned on and on. and blady hell i just cut it last semester. and today at this japanese restaurant, Mikasa, i saw my primary school friend who i have never kept in touch with at all since i transferred after primary6. perth is just too small and i wonder who again will i meet in the future. _ _ jess and i were probably stuck in some kinda twilight zone thingy because she too saw her long lost high school friend in the exact same place.
saw a tech magazine at coles just now, of course the page i had to flip to was the review for Creative Vision M and W. sigh. which just flew away...thoughts of owning it i mean. sigh. was even thinking of sogoking daddy to get me the M since he didn't want to get me the W. obviously this thought kept slamming into my head when i saw that my LG mp3 was practically flatlining due to me not charging it and my creative mp3 player just wasn't working at all. SIGH. huge huge SIGH. i need new tech things to make me happy.
anyway stuff from yesasia finally arrived yesterday. was freaking out a bit because the diru file wasn't in the package and i promptly fired off a message to yesasia, which they replied in the same day so good for them. and the file arrived today. so yeah that was the only happy thing going on there. oh that and the fact that i got an assignment bumped down to a week6 due date. anyway got my diru withering to death. cd with file, my gazette cd, demi god cd and suju notebooks which i don't know if i'm ever going to use them hah. gazette's cd was a bit cracked at the back T_T but i'll live with it since it's not a deep crack and it's just the plastic casing. sigh.
can't wait for next month because i want to get the diru 2003 concert dvd (all region free! yes!) and hopefully september's suju POTM is not some lazy ass editing job pictures which are exactly the same as S mag. but yeah. not thinking about the currency rate at this moment. _ _
i really desperately will kill for it want diru's blitz5days dvd. i don't care whether it's burned from the real thing. i want it. badly! though i have no idea what actually got me into diru, i just remembered that the first vid ever that i saw of them was the yokan perf from blitz5days day2 (if not mistaken) with the ever kakkoii die-sama! seriously i love that song and the live was even better. having mp3 rips of blitz5 is not the same! waaaah.
i'm counting down the days my mum will return to malaysia from HK so i can bombard her with questions of what she got for me. sigh. i mean what's the use of going somewhere (that i can't get to go EVER) and not getting omiyage? like seriously? though i can probably cross the VW stuff off my list too. and probably put "snort" next to the striked out entry.
sigh i'm getting depressed again.
anyway tomorrow i need to go to the ATM and return tons of money to jess. SIGH.
tomorrow i have a meeting with our FTV client at 1. sigh. been spending oodles of money as usual. fuck. and i didn't do my accs even. die case die case.
will update tomorrow.