Monday, August 20, 2007@12:52 AM
wow...
just when i thought i couldn't feel any worse for tonight, i actually do!
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i need something happy in my life right now.
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screw it all.
oooookay.
i don't like the direction of where this is heading. so now it seems that i'm staying. so what to fuck do i do? after all those talk of 'we can do this online' and 'we'll help any way we can' and 'don't worry'...
what the fuck do we do now? leave those 33 people hanging? fuck i forgot to update the fucking list. SHIT. well not my fault, i have no idea where the fuck her money went to. BUT FUCK I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS. i have a system and i hate breaking the system and i hate that i'm not doing even the simplest thing properly.
shit and with with kibum's bday tomorrow and yesung's on the 24th? the one we're supposed to be doing a project on? and don't forget sept 1 the so-called resurrection of fc and new membership intake and what shit like that. what are we supposed to do? fuck i'm so anticipating hate mail right now.
all words and no actions now issit? that's what people are going to be thinking of us. we're not doing anything so why the fuck should they give us their money and trust in us? people are not naive. no many how many honeyed words they say in front of you but they have another face and another side.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck!
i now welcome all the threats that 공주 always tosses out. you know what? do it, because frankly, though i want to give a shit about it all, i find that i really don't. fuck. don't just start something because you shiok sendiri and leave us to deal with the shit. because we're not like you. we actually CARE. fuck
excuse the language (not that i really mean it hah)
happy thoughts. positive thoughts.
nope.
not working.