Saturday, April 5, 2008@8:56 PM
*insert monkey sighing emot*
right now i have no idea what to say in my blog. because my own feelings are so mixed up i don't think i can address them properly right now and say what i want to say.
i realise i can't forcibly make people do what i hope they would do. and no matter how many times we rehash the same story or we supposedly get the other side of the story, it would never be enough. because the seed of doubt has been planted and i end up not knowing which one is the ultimate truth or which is the embellished version.
i only wish we can pull through this together and stay together as friends, as family. because to tell you guys the truth, i have no one else in KL who i really really hang out with except you guys. and i can tell you guys right now that i don't wish to lose any one of you as my friends.
i feel everyone is still keeping their feelings deep within themselves. i'm the same way too. i can't express myself well enough verbally to tell someone that i do care about them and i wish for us to remain friends, etc etc. so maybe we should just get together in someone's house, switch off the lights and light some candles if that would mean we would tell each other what we really feel. please just don't it be too late and we can't salvage any of this.
i don't intend to retell the entire freaking story here. so if any of you wants to know, you can just ask me privately.