Wednesday, December 23, 2009@2:02 AM
KLIA
just came home not long ago from sending shuchan to the airport...she's off to shanghai for her holidays...
haih//
i couldn't help sighing and feeling jealous when i was at the airport, sitting at McD and watching all these families sitting around, enjoy McValue meals, knowing they're off on a family vacation somewhere...why doesn't my family ever offer to go on vacation?
i've never been on a family vacation since bali...and that was when i was a primary school kid okay for fuck's sakes? it's not a moonchan blog entry without swearing so yeah...and that ill fated trip last year doesn't count no matter how pretty the place was. and mama how can you even freaking begin to compare shanghai and brunei? *roll my freaking eyes till they cramp* not to mention i'm already going to go back to brunei for cny wat? is brunei some exotic place that i'll go and like...tour? please. no offence to my brunei buddies k but when you're already bitter about something and someone tells you stupid things like this you just want to stop yourself from either bashing their head in or your own head in.
haih//
anyway, i'm jealous.
i'm safe from all work bullshit till the next year. which doesn't look to be improving does it when it's 23rd December, and i'm going to buy an ipod shuffle later and i'm already worrying i won't be able to survive financially next month/start of next year.
is this how working life is? just geunyang work, spend on fucking petrol, rent, maintenance, astro, water, electricity, internet? bills, bills and more freaking neverending bills? and save for 'rainy day' which will be wiped out once you go on vacation? or when you want to buy something that makes you happy? am i just supposed to live like a freaking hermit, don't shop for new stuff, don't buy anything that i 'want' as opposed to 'need'?
life sucks.